I Was Ripped from Reality on Salvia Divinorum And I Almost Didn't Come Back
Written by Callan Hansen | Published on
This has to be the most mind-blowing experiences of my life—holy shit. I'm just so grateful to be back here, to be alive. I genuinely didn't think I was going to see any of this ever again. My soul got pulled straight out of my body, and I saw that our reality is just one of many. And I was not supposed to see any of that.
At first, it felt like I was trying to pry open an elevator door. There was this intense force on the other side, trying to keep it shut, like something was actively resisting me. It felt like a battle—this strange tug-of-war, like this higher force didn't want me to see what was behind it yet. And just as I pulled it open, it was like I got yoinked out of reality, like someone grabbed me by the scruff of my mind with two fingers and just yanked me through.
I was so scared these external forces were going to take my soul and throw me into a completely different reality—like I'd never see this one again. And the scariest part is that could have actually happened. I could have been taken, placed somewhere else, and nobody here would have ever realized. Life would have just carried on without me.
I got pulled into this dark void, and I could still see reality at the bottom right of my vision, shaped like a doorway. But I was getting yanked beyond it, into the void. These entities, whatever they were, were just there, putting reality together like it was all an illusion. It felt more real than real, like I'd just caught a glimpse behind the curtain of existence, full-on Matrix-type shit. And I was just stuck in the void, waiting, completely terrified, because I didn't know what they were going to do with me. Was I ever coming back? Was this it? Had I just been replaced?
Imagine looking at reality, seeing it as a little doorway in your vision, and then suddenly getting yoinked out of it. And you're just floating in a black void because these entities don't know what to do with you. That's exactly what happened. And it was scary because I didn't know how long I was going to be gone for—or if I was coming back at all. I wasn't supposed to be there.
And that's what worries me. Has this happened to other people? Have souls been swapped out before? Would we even know? This whole experience shattered how I see reality. It was like getting a sneak peek at what happens when you die. And that's horrifying because… it really felt like dying.
Salvia was definitely warning me—don't take high doses unless you're okay with being ripped out of existence. I'm never going to see reality the same way again. But what's crazy is that while I was in the void, it was also kinda… comforting? Like these entities weren't expecting me, like I wasn't supposed to be there yet, and they're thinking 'Oh shit, he's here'. They weren't ready for me, so they just threw me into the void while they kept on putting reality together.
It's like reality is constantly being assembled by something beyond us, and we're just totally oblivious. And in that moment, I was almost taken. That was a real possibility. I could have been lost or misplaced forever, pulled into another reality or something else. But I wasn't. And I'm so damn grateful to the Salvia spirit for that.
That was one of the craziest, most reality-shattering experiences of my life. I'll never get over it. I'm just so grateful to be alive and experiencing everything that I am, we really take it all for granted. Because once it's over, you realize how fragile everything really is, and how easily it could all be taken away.